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2007.09.02.01.42.04.20.apology

Paul, I feel like I owe you an apology...I feel like I should be embarassed for myself...I totally lost controll of my own body for a few minutes...If you have ever wondered what a full blown PANIC ATTACK looks like, that was it...If I hadn't stopped for that guy going the other way between us and Don, & the bar, I would have never turned around and rubbed your belly...which was when I froze up...I just remember you talking to me, but thinking the whole time that I needed to leave...very ANXIOUS...What did I say???...You work with my brother...That was stupid...WTF!!!...I need to go...You're asking why I'm still here, but I'm not getting it...and then I did...but you left first...and then I could start thinking again...And I don't know why this happens...but you have some thing about you that makes me loose controll...I'm freaking out because I walked into the bar full of Bears...That is so FUCKED UP!...and I interrupt whatever it is that you were working on...I froze...I could hear you talking, but it was not processing in my head...heart racing...smile and nod your head...WTF!!!...I was doing so well..having a really good time up untill now...out of nowhere...Get outside...going in wrong direction...whose calling me?...Fred helps me save face again...get to truck...FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!...calm down...Paul, I'm Sorry.

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